Former child star Amanda Bynes is clearing the air on her past troubles with drug abuse, crazy tweets and her career with Paper magazines 'Break The Internet' issue.
Bynes says she fell into a deep depression for 4-6 months after seeing herself in the Shakespeare Twelfth Night adaptation, She's the Man.
"I went into a deep depression for 4-6 months because I didn't like the way I looked as a boy."
"It just really put me into a funk."
At 16, Bynes admitted to abusing marijuana and later on experimented with "molly" and ecstasy. She said, "I tried cocaine three times but I never got high from cocaine. I never liked it. It was never my drug of choice." She added that she started taking Adderall, a "skinny pill" on a regular basis until it got to the point of her faking ADD symptoms so a psychiatrist could write her a prescription.
Her downfall came after the drug use started to affect her acting career, "I made a bunch of mistakes but I wasn't fired. I did leave... it was definitely completely unprofessional of me to walk off and leave them stranded when they'd spent so much money on a set and crew and camera equipment and everything."
At 24, she admitted she was stupid and made a "foolish mistake" by announcing her retirement on Twitter as opposed to a press release. During this time, she would get high and tweet rather embarrassing and crazy tweets.
"I'm really ashamed and embarrassed with the things I said. I can't turn back time but if I could, I would. And I'm so sorry to whoever I hurt and whoever I lied about because it truly eats away at me. It makes me feel so horrible and sick to my stomach and sad," Bynes says. "Everything I worked my whole life to achieve, I kind of ruined it all through Twitter."
The 32-year-old actress is now almost four years sober and is enrolled at the Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising in Los Angeles.
